I was encouraged by the idea of becoming “enlightened” one October evening in 2007. I was scheduled to see the Dalai Lama and I was buzzing with curiosity and intrigue. I felt incredibly awake, like as if all of my senses were functioning at a higher frequency, like as if my body already knew that this would be an event to remember and that it would resonate very deeply with me.
Almost two years later, I stumbled across some poetry I had written as a result of that evening. I re-read it again tonight and it felt like I was reading it for the first time. I’m amazed at what that evening brought out for me. I’m even more amazed at the words written on that piece of paper. They seem almost foreign to me and I can’t quite remember the last time my voice carried a message so strongly like this. I’m a bit saddened that the significance behind these words hasn’t stuck with me they way I intended them to (or the way I would have hoped for). But, there’s something brewing tonight…because I’m actually writing!
This is my first blog entry after months of writers’ block. I’ve had a hard time with my words lately. Tonight I seem to be breaking through an opaque barrier that has kept me in a muzzle. I’m starting to bubble up with the aliveness that flowed through my body on that October evening in 2007. So I thought I would share those few words with you to perhaps evoke some inspiration and perhaps at the very least, to share and humbly connect with you.
Thanks to you, I can celebrate life because you so generously entrust me with your heart, mind and soul. I can celebrate devotion because I feel you emanate it and you transmit it to my every pore. I can celebrate purity because I see you remain unclouded and luminous in your resolve and you simply shine with transparency. I can celebrate love because your eyes evoke it without fail. I can celebrate truth because you own it, you confirm it and with you, each step I take defines it, each touch confirms it, and each breathe solidifies it. I can celebrate freedom because you acknowledge it, support it, establish it, embrace it and ride off into the sunset with it. I can celebrate passion with your zest and thirst for all things new, for growth, for knowledge of the world around you and for things that seem bigger than yourself. I can celebrate humility because through you, there’s a deep and prophetic respect for the past, present and future and ultimately a belief in the possible. I can celebrate acceptance – of people and things in their natural state, of the things that can be changed and of the things that seem unchangeable – your courage and wisdom guide you to know the difference and you instill such a profound sense of justice and hope. You have lightened my spirit, heightened my awareness and have made my challenges seem a little less lonely and a lot more bearable.
Tonight I contemplate this: they say that there are always causes and conditions for everything – that the way you are, the way you behave towards people, the way you view the world, the way you react to things, the way you live your daily life, all directly reflect your past, affect your present and predict your future…